I’ve been a bad blogger…(plus an ode to the fantastic Sarah Kramer!)

Hey peoples in the blogosphere. I am so sorry I haven’t had any updates at all lately. It’s not that I haven’t been coming up with recipes or making things from other blogs or cookbooks…but I’ll be straight forward in saying that I’ve been having a pretty hard time lately. If you’ve actually browsed around my blog you would have came across my “about me” page and read that I’m a recovering anorexic. Now I stress recovering. Lately I haven’t been doing so hot. Why? I have no idea. I’ve been anxious. I’ve been only eating my “safe” foods. I’ve been cooking and baking for other people like crazy. I’m over-exercising like crazy. I can barely leave the house (except for class). I want it to stop. Well…I’m really hoping it’s getting better. I’m going to try to get out tomorrow to go thrift store shopping and maybe hitting up Wegmans and the health food store. Ahh…just wish me luck. Anyways. I’d rather not sound depressed. How about I at least share some photographic evidence of what I’ve been whippin’ up in the kitchen! I swear to god I’ve been attached to my books by the lovely and fantastic Sarah Kramer. All I’ve been making lately has been out of How It All Vegan!, The Garden of Vegan, and La Dolce Vegan. They are SERIOUSLY my favourite cookbooks. So so so so so fun and amazing. Every recipe has been a hit with the whole family. And that includes my very anti-health-food/anti-vegan father. He won’t touch tofu with a ten foot poll (which is why in a few days I’m making the tip-top tofu loaf….bwahahaha! I’m so sneaky). But yeah. Within the past week I made the Mulligatawny Soup from HIAV which was a hit (no picture sorry…it was eaten up too fast!). It got rave reviews. Everyone loved the spicy-curry-nessnessness. Also, I made the Wild Mushroom soup from TGOV (hey, it’s cold here. Soup is good right now) – which was also freaking amazing. No picture for that either. Next came Eggplant Parmesan from LDV…made with VeganRella along side some steamed broccoli in Wolffie’s Nutritional Yeast “Cheese” sauce, garlic bread, and the Double Chocolate muffins (also from La Dolce Vegan). Total hit, man.

Now. Two nights ago I made “Mum’s Bean and Cheese Casserole ” from HIAV alongside some more broccoli and “cheese”. I swear to god that my dad had like half of the casserole dish. Crazy. It was so amazing. I heart dijon mustard. A lot. 🙂 This is a keeper. Actually, I’m thinking of taking this to the fam’s Easter dinner this year.

And oh the desserts. I made the Chocolate Chip Cookie Bars from HIAV. Dude. Amazing. Seriously. Can she do no wrong?

But you do remember my saying that I’ve been struggling, right? So this was some of the only stuff I’ve been able to put in my mouth lately. It’s really been helping. Guys, let me tell you there’s nothing worse than feeling like you’re going to like inflate and explode from eating a bowl of lettuce. Awful. Ever since the new year began I have been going in a downward spiral. I mean, I feel bloated. I exercise so much my feat are swelling up and are blistering. I won’t eat if I don’t burn the calories off. And the worst part is, I know I’m doing this to myself but I don’t know what to do about it. I can’t get my Epstein barrs back…(from last year…). Sorry about the rant, but I had to get that out. What does this have to do with the amazing Sarah you ask? Well, reading how she got over her struggles is inspiring me to get better. I want to so badly. It’s just hard. If anyone out there is going through the same thing, you know how hard it is. Every day is a struggle. It’s very very hard, but you just have to take it day by day. As for today? Meh. I feel bloated. But I’m eating. But I also couldn’t get myself to leave the house in fear that I wouldn’t be able to exercise (yeah. I’m insane. I get up at 6 am to start working out…uhhg. Why do I do this to myself…I’m so tired). So I hope tomorrow will be better. :\ Wish me luck, folks.

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